(14) we continue to ball



once again, it has been a while! some things never seem to change.

i was totally swamped for all of july with artfight (i wanted to do a drawing a day; didn't succeed but i definitely think i learned so much) and getting to meet my best friend in person! it was our first time seeing each other in real life and it was absolutely amazing! august was a month full of deadlines and stuff that i kept failing to catch up on from july. i think now, near the end of september, i've finally caught up to everything and am ready to keep going forwards!

also dropping a quick update: the worldbuilding and lore section has officially been started up! i've probably written like ten thousand words or so to flesh it out so far. haven't written this extensively in quite some time, so i'm proud of myself for finally getting the stuff boiling in my head into a format other people can perceive. please give some of it a read if you can!

that being said, i'm still trying to figure out now how to proceed. i have been fully intending to continue work on 4komas. since i don't enjoy writing prose much, i figured this would be a good way to introduce my worldbuilding. however, i don't really know if i want to make 4komas just regarding worldbuilding. i think a focus on characters is infinitely more appealing to me right now.

i don't know if i've said it here before but i've never intended on writing an actual series or giant plotline featuring my characters. despite my worldbuilding and lore, i tend to prefer very lighthearted, slice of life things over fighting to prevent threats against the existence of the world. in the coming months i hope to dabble more in 4komas and mess around with some drafts.

however, i do have something very big planned for the end of the year to celebrate christmas and my friends' birthdays (crazy how basically all my closest friends have been born either between november and february, in may, or july. i know that's like a range of 6 months but it's so strange that i don't really talk with anyone closely from outside of those ranges haha). it's still in the works and it's a massive undertaking that has little to do with the canon of my universe. in an ideal world, i'd love to work on this and 4komas at the same time. i am definitely going to strive to. not sure how it'll turn out, but i'll never know until i try!

work has also been super brutal in this month and the last. i'm really hoping for my work situation to get more sorted out next month, as that is when my management said the annual budget will be set for next year. honestly am praying with everything i have that the things i need passed in the annual budget will come through.

with the way the economy is right now and just the volatile nature of jobs, it's really hard to convince myself to leave this place. working here is a 4.5/10 in my opinion. i could definitely be a lot happier but i also have a lot more room to be more miserable. because of that and how bad it is to find a job right now, i feel like i am trapped here regardless of october's outcome. the work isn't exactly hard, just stressful and burning me out because i dislike socialising. but i could go on about this forever without accomplishing anything, so i am just going to continue hoping that october will be the turning point i'm yearning for.

on a brighter note, the big personal project i've been talking about on and off should be coming to fruition before the end of this month! i will definitely make a post regarding it when it does, as it is my pride and joy. it's been a long journey but the destination is finally in sight!

i've also been getting into a forum/game called chicken smoothie lately. my best friend introduced me to it and it's been a really cool experience! i think i am definitely binging it a lot at the moment. i tend to do that when introduced to new things haha. that being said, i'm probably going to be doing low stress doodles over there for pets so i'll be uploading some of them here as well, though they may be lower res due to being a commission technically.

and that's a wrap! tired but still kickin really sums up this entire year for me. but we carry on!



photo of aidan nendo being with me during weekend overtime!
we can both be overworked together!